Forever Your Little Brother

An Email to Kuya:

i really wish i wrote you sooner.. 

regrets i guess..

SENT: 19 September 2011 7:33PM

uhhmmm..
okay..
kamusta ka na?
i haven't heard from you for so long..
i've been asking mommy about you but they're not saying anything..
just wondering if you're alright..
ive been hearing things..
hhhmmm.. about you..
i dont know..
uhhmmm..
just tell me everythings okay..
just reply and tell me everythings going alright with you..

i haven't heard anything from you..

i've been having dreams about you..

i dont know..
i'm just worried about you..

remember what daddy would always tell us?

we're best friends.. our family.. me, you, daddy, mommy, josuha, mia, lola, joseph, spencer.. all of us.. :)

the whole world may turn their back on us.. but our family wont.. :)

i don't know..

i read your blog..

i know im not supposed to coz im on my mission..

but yeah.. i did.. i read your blog..

uhhmmm.. i dont know..

i think you're going through a lot of things right now..

i bet you're really confused and you just feel painful about things..

sad about things that happened.. and things that are happening..

but ofcourse.. who am i to say? i haven't seen you for so long..

its been so long kuya.. since you've been home and just stayed at home..

you'd always go..

i don't know..

i'm sorry i didn't tell you before..

but it really made me feel sad everytime you were away..

i always looked up to you before..

i always wanted to be like you..

i always wanted to do what you did...

i really looked up to you..

and since you left.. everything just felt sad..

everything just felt wrong..

i don't know..

it just makes me feel sad.. =(

hai.. i wish i told you before that you should just stay with us.. stay at home..

i wish i had the guts to tell you that i wanted to be with you forever as my brother..

i wish i really had the guts before to tell you how much i really cared about you..

i love you kuya..

i hope you're doing alright..

families are forever kuya.. =)

please.. please.. no empty seats..

i love you kuya..

forever your little brother,
Jaypee Malit